I wonder if sometimes you look back at me the way I look at you.
I wonder alot of things though.
I want you.
Every flaw, everything.
Because I love every single little piece of you.
I wonder if one day youll ever get to read these?
I hope you can…sometime down the road.
I keep thinking maybe, just maybe once my shit gets together youll see how much could could really accomplish.
I want to make you happy.
I want whatever you want.
Cause we see so eye to eye.
Our thoughts, dreams.
I want the adventures, bickering, the cute simple little things you do to make me smile.
I want you to know how I feel, how you make me feel…and I wish I could help you the same way.
The brightness I used to see in your eyes.
Your way too awesome to be so damn hurt.
I didnt feel like typing a bunch of the same old shit out.
Butthen im like ughh fuckk I need to vent somewhere, where noone knows me and I can feel free to say it all.
I need to stop doing this to myself.
I let you get to me.
I let myself love you and pretend for everything to be fine.
Ya see! How much we just fit?
We think alike so much its insane.
But your just like the others…and its never going to get that far.
But you know ill be here, and so will you, but not in the way I hope.
Fuck fuck fuck im so FUCKING AGGRAVATED.
What do you seriously want from me?!
I thought I was a good person, I dont think I deserve this spot in your life.
I play the shittiest roll.
Im here for you. ALWAYS. EVERYTIME. ANYTIME.
But do you seriously know what this does to me?
It rips me apart knowing SOON your gonna have to cut me back out of your life and im just gonna have to wait to be good enough again in yours.
Do you not know how much I hurt everyday.
Your EVERYWHERE. And I didnt even see you for months.
Everything that I think makes sense to me dosnt make sense to anyone else. Thats where you come in. You understand those parts about me noone does.
Its sad I feel this way but I hope you stay with me a little longer…you give me a reason.
Ill never admit this to you.
So ill be here I guess…being your friend, just a friend, when I can.